Oh that was such a day-killer. This is really a small spoiler. One of Four's fears came true. My whole day just went straight to hell, but no worries because one thing I learned from this book is that the heart heals with time..along with other stuff like genes. So yes, I'm finally over this whole thrilling adventurous ride and I have to say, this trilogy did feel like a train ride. First, it's exhilarating, new, and even exciting. But then you adjust, the whole novelty dies down, maybe a train wreck occurs along the way, people die, get off, some are injured and do not make it to the end of this journey. And it's guaranteed, people WILL die, but it won't be like [b:A Game of Thrones|13496|A Game of Thrones (A Song of Ice and Fire, #1)|George R.R. Martin|https://d202m5krfqbpi5.cloudfront.net/books/1369520317s/13496.jpg|1466917] where it's a dirty random bloodbath of favorite characters.
So everyone should know by now through the internet and/or the physical book that there are two narratives Tobias and Tris. That is crucial to the story, very important and please note it. That's as close as I can get to not spoiling anything for all the fanatics out there. The conversations are still as stilted and terse and I don't understand some of the sentence structures in the story. The primary device that egged me on was the plot itself. The story is a compelling read, the unraveling of all the mysteries, resolvement of all the mysteries and conflicts all get their turns. Allegiant is a more love-oriented and relationship-based story than action although there is a lot of that too. Roth manages to show the greatest qualities in the characters while depicting them also as flawed broken people who were constantly beaten down and discouraged by life. It is very touching to read but the characters do not express their emotions across effectively enough. Sometimes, their (Four and Peter and Caleb)facades crack and the narrative shows a vulnerable weak side of people and we show empathy. But then they bounce back resiliently and I find it hard to love them again. Even Tris says so.
It's getting harder and more difficult for me to articulate my ambivalent feelings towards this final book and I don't know how to talk about it without hinting too much or spoiling the mood. The middle of the book felt like only fillers, sort of unnecessary and probably there to build up relationships, tension and basically the whole new world they encounter out there. Okay, the whole irony while reading this book for me was that the world Tris and co. meet outside, this so-called HUGE plot twist, well, heh, my friend Mali already predicted it a couple weeks before the release of Allegiant. Funny thing is, Mali (only read the first book) and she was using the same plot twist for her essay in class and this happened like, what, a couple weeks ago? Roth just happened to have the same idea, used it, and surprised me. Nope, no shock there.